(Clearwisdom.net)

This year, the Mid-Autumn Festival and National Day fell on the same day. I imagined there would be a lot of tourists at Tiananmen during this time and I wanted to go to validate the Fa. With this thought, my heart was determined--I would use my life to validate and safeguard Dafa, and to awaken the people of the world; I would fulfill my vow.

With the help of other practitioners, before leaving for Beijing I made a banner reading "Falun Dafa is good." Fellow practitioners suggested that I take another scroll so if there were helium balloons sold in the square I could tie the scroll to the balloons and the scroll could float through the sky. It seemed like a good idea. So with both a banner and a scroll I stepped onto the train heading for Beijing.

After I got on the train, the police began examining ID cards. I knew they were targeting Falun Gong practitioners. I could not allow them to examine my ID card, so I sent forth righteous thoughts to eradicate the evil behind them and not allow them to examine it. Several policemen came over and examined the ID cards at my side. They even took away some people's ID cards, but they passed by me without asking for mine. Thus, I successfully arrived in Beijing and took a bus to the square.

There were quite a few people in the square that day. While walking in the square, I sent forth righteous thoughts and looked for helium balloons, but did not see any. Then I decided to hang up the scroll on the Golden Water Bridge. When I got to the bridge I walked back and forth, not daring to take out the scroll. I knew it was because of fear, and so I resisted and eliminated my attachment to fear. I told myself, "I should not delay any more. Just unfurl the banner." I walked to the other side of the square through the underground tunnels and looked for an opportunity to unfurl the banner.

When I came to one end of the square I saw many people, including some foreigners, taking pictures. I decided to unfurl the banner on the spot. I looked around and saw several police vehicles parked close by. There were also some uniformed police officers patrolling the square. I sent forth righteous thoughts to make them go away and make them unable to see me. I stayed in the area for a long time, but still did not find the courage to unfurl the banner. At the same time, I saw a person holding a walkie-talkie in his hand. The thought crossed my mind that he might be a plainclothes policeman. I felt a bit anxious. What would I do if I were arrested? I'll be done for if I am unable to endure the torture! Fellow practitioners are waiting for me to go back and do more things. Then I thought, "No. Our Teacher doesn't accept any of this; neither do I. I must deny it. I am a divine being, and I am doing the most righteous and greatest thing in the universe." Our Teacher said in the lecture on the Fa at the Washington, D.C. International Conference, "An everyday person is very weak before a cultivator." I told myself, "My life is created by Dafa, so it is the most righteous." I recited the verse silently in my mind. I thought, "I must succeed this time. Teacher, please help me." I began to calm down. When the square was filled with people, I unfurled the banner and shouted loudly, "Falun Dafa is good! Restore the reputation of Falun Dafa! Restore the reputation of our Teacher!" Even though I had shouted, the police didn't come over. Then I put the banner away, and decided to hang up the scroll on the Golden Water Bridge.

I realized that I had taken the most difficult step. Now I felt more relaxed and felt no fear at all. I went back to the Golden Water Bridge. Because there were a lot of people that day, we had to go over the bridge in groups. I was pushed to the middle. When the police allowed me to go I took a chance and pushed my way to the edge. It was so hard for me to get to the side of the bridge. I took out the scroll and hung it up on the bridge pole. It fell off right after I hung it up because one end wasn't tied tightly. I picked it up from the ground and hung it up on a stone railing of the bridge. Then I left. At that very moment, I thought of our Teacher's words, "If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will become non-existent. This is not to be self-imposed, but is achieved by calmly and truly letting go of it." (from "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s).") I realized, at the beginning, I had not worked to melt into the Fa. Everyday people's thoughts still controlled me, but when I thought of the Teacher's words and filled my mind with the Fa, everything changed, and I did it naturally. I went to the train station, bought a ticket and returned home safely.

I always thought that I should be doing better, but I had not fulfilled my wish. In the future, I will commit myself more thoroughly to Fa-rectification.

October 28, 2001