(Clearwisdom.net) I am 55 years old. Struggling for fame, self interest, and feelings of sentimentality in this human world exhausted me and wore me out. It is exactly as Teacher said in Zhuan Falun:

“Therefore, he competes and fights all his life with a badly-wounded heart. He might feel very bitter and tired, always finding things unfair. Being unable to eat or sleep well, he feels sad and disappointed. When he gets older, he will end up in poor health and all kinds of illnesses will surface.” (Zhuan Falun)

Suffering from Diseases that Couldn't be Cured by Modern Medicine

After I was laid off from my job, I opened a small business to make a living. I was focused only on making money. But my health worsened and I suffered from dizziness, heart disease, a blood disorder, neurosis, and depression. I was unable to sleep at night. During the day, I only wanted to sit outside and didn’t want to go home. Sometimes I locked myself in my room for a month or two at a time. I was self-conscious and afraid of seeing other people. My life was miserable and I was on the edge of collapse. My platelet count was often only 20,000 to 30,000 per mL. Consequently, I often had bruises all over my body. My doctor told me that the condition could develop into leukemia. I spent large amounts of money to get healthy and tried all kinds of medication. I even tried witchcraft. But nothing worked, and I lived in fear.

Last fall, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and told I needed surgery. However, the doctor in Shenyang Cancer Hospital refused to operate on me because my platelet count was too low. I then went to Shenyang Medical University where I was given expensive medication to boost my platelet count. After five days, my platelet count rose to over 100,000 platelets per mL, however the side effect of the medication was very severe. I finally had the surgery and returned home. Due to my physical condition, I was unable to care for myself and needed help even with simple tasks such as putting on my clothes and shoes. I dared not to move too much. Even with being careful, I still dislocated my shoulder.

One month after the surgery, my son went to Beijing with my medical records to get an expert opinion. The physician told him that my cancer was in the terminal stage, and that I couldn't get chemotherapy due to my low platelet count. My only option was to do nothing and see what happened. Two months later, my son took me to the hospital for a re-evaluation. The chest CT showed that the cancer had metastasized to my lung. My platelets had dropped to only 8,000 platelets per mL. The doctor suggested that I have my spleen removed to extend my life.

My son didn’t tell me any of this. He only said, “You are doing fine. You only need a small surgery and we can go home in a week. After going home, I will take you on an airplane since you have never been in an airplane before. I will buy you a fur coat since you never had one.” I said, “I don’t want to ride in an airplane nor do I want surgery. I only want to go home.” I was very afraid of needing injections because it always took the phlebotomist seven or eight tries to successfully withdraw blood samples for testing. My son then said, “Let’s go home first. We can come back in a week.”

When I returned home, I was very sad and desperate. I even thought of committing suicide.

Practicing Falun Gong in the Depths of Despair

When the mountain and stream seem to come to an end, after passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead. When I was desperate, a Dafa practitioner once again advised me to practice Falun Gong. (She had mentioned it to me before, but I didn’t pay much attention.) She said, “Medicine cannot cure your disease. It seems that life is coming to an end. Only Dafa and Teacher can save you. Your only option is to practice Dafa.” She also gave me many examples of terminally ill people who had been saved by practicing Falun Gong. I truly realized that only Dafa could save me. Believing in Teacher and Dafa was my only path. I decided to firmly cultivate in Dafa.

Learning that I no longer wanted to go to the hospital for treatment, my son was angry and started criticizing Dafa. I said, “You shouldn't talk nonsense.” Meanwhile, the practitioner told me, “You must make a choice between cultivation in Dafa and having your spleen removed in order to live a little longer. The doctor said that you only have two months left. You must firmly believe in Teacher in order to be saved.” I thought to myself, “I've spent over 200,000 yuan on my medical treatment over the years. The surgery alone cost me 80,000 yuan. I have suffered so much in my life. At the end, I am now relying on organ removal to sustain my life.” My mind became clear at that point that practicing Dafa was my only path. I then told my son, “I will not go to hospital. I am determined to practice Falun Gong and will never regret my decision. You don’t need to worry about me. Just concentrate on your own business. I have Teacher to watch over me.” It is truly as what the practitioner said –Teacher will help you as soon as your heart is firm.

My son stopped talking and fell into deep thought. After half an hour, he asked, “Mom, are you sure you will not go to hospital?” I said, “Yes.” He replied, “Then go ahead practice Falun Gong.” Afterwards the practitioner gave me the Dafa books and exercise tapes and taught me the exercises.

I studied the Fa every day diligently. I also joined the group study to share experiences. Through Fa study, my xinxing quickly improved. I learned the true meaning of life and that all the diseases were caused by karma. During that period, I felt that Teacher was purifying my body. In the past, I dared not take a bus because I would become nauseated. But I had to take the bus to join the group study. A fellow practitioner told me, “You will not have motion sickness because Teacher is watching over you.” My sister asked me to bring a plastic bag just in case I got sick. I refused because I believed what the practitioner said. Sure enough, I did very well and my mind was very clear. I could then take the bus.

In the past, I suffered from severe vertigo. When it occurred, I felt very dizzy, as if the whole room was spinning, and I needed to lay in bed for 10 to 15 days. One morning, I felt dizzy and nauseous. My family wanted to take me to hospital. I knew in my heart that Teacher was purifying my body. A practitioner told me, “As long as you believe in Teacher and Dafa, all the discomfort you experience is to eliminate your karma. Don’t be afraid. Teacher is purifying your body and eliminating your karma.” I told my family, “I am fine. Teacher is purifying my body. I will recover in a moment.” Sure enough, I recovered after lying in bed for a little while. I felt very light after I got up. In the past, my heart disease recurred once in a while. The angina pain was excruciating. I often had the nitroglycerin ready in case it occurred. One day when I was doing the sitting meditation, the pain started again. Knowing that Teacher was purifying my body, I didn’t move and continued to meditate. Sweat dripped down my face, but I finished the exercises. The pain went away and never occurred again because Teacher completely eliminated the karma.

The pain after my mastectomy was so severe that I dared not move, and I could not touch anything with my hands. The incision and surrounding area were tight and painful. When I slept, I could only lay on one side, and moving even a little caused pain. Teacher helped me to correct the dislocated shoulder. I had a dream one night that the electric quilt was on fire. I was so scared that I supported myself with one arm and sat up. I really hurt at that moment. The next day, I felt much better and I could move my hand. The same dream repeated the next night and I had the same response. My shoulder again got better gradually. One time when I took bus with another practitioner, he suddenly pulled me by my shoulder to a front seat and said that the front seat was more comfortable. My shoulder hurt so much that my tears came to my eyes. He said, “How did I forget that your shoulder was injured?” I knew that Teacher was once again rectifying my body.

My family took care of me after my surgery. After practicing Falun Gong, a fellow practitioner reminded me, “You are now a Dafa practitioner. You should not treat yourself as a patient and rely on others to take care of you.” I then let go of my thoughts about my illness and started doing some housework. When my daughter-in-law gave birth not long ago, my son wanted to hire someone to help. I told them not to. I took care of her and did all the housework. In addition, I still had time to study the Fa and practice the exercises.

Seeing my dramatic change after practicing Falun Gong, my family and friends all witnessed the magnificence of Dafa. They became very supportive. I told the fellow practitioner, “Due to my poor enlightenment quality, I waited for so long before I started practicing Falun Gong. Now I cannot miss this chance again. I am determined to cultivate all the way to the end and return to my origin with Teacher.”

I Am the Happiest Person

Teacher constantly encouraged me. When I was doing the sitting meditation, I felt a strong energy field. Sometimes I felt that I floated in the air and saw clouds drifting by me. I have seen spinning Falun many times. Seeing my changes, my son is very happy. But he is still concerned about my disease and has many times wanted me to go be reevaluated in the hospital. I told him, “It has almost been a year. Aren't I doing great? Why do I need to go to the hospital? Don’t worry, because I am finally free of disease.”

I am truly disease-free. I had suffered insomnia for nearly a decade. Because of my low platelet count, my gums and face were very pale. I also had suffered dental disease for many years. No one was willing to extract my teeth because of my blood disorder. My teeth are now all restored, and my insomnia is cured. I have a good appetite, and my face is rosy. I am energetic, and people have told me that I look prettier and kinder, as if I was another person.

I truly feel that I am the happiest person in the world. Teacher gave me my second life. Words cannot describe my gratitude to Teacher. I can only follow Teacher’s words,

“Steadfastly cultivate Dafa, the will unflinching
The raising of levels is what’s fundamental
In the face of tests one’s true nature is revealed
Achieve Consummation, becoming a Buddha, Dao, or God”
(“True Nature Revealed” from “Essentials for Further Advancement II” )