(Minghui.org) In the eyes of the average person, I was an intellectual of a high calibre, a known expert at home and abroad who enjoyed a good national and international reputation in my field of work.
I did not enter into Falun Dafa practice due to poor health or because my work and my life were not going well. On the contrary, it was my strong will and my tendency to look for flaws that led me eventually to realize that Falun Dafa is the most magnificent law of the universe.
I came into contact with Falun Dafa in 1997. I read through Falun Dafa’s main text Zhuan Falun three times, but because I was extremely busy seeking fame and fortune and so had completely missed the wonderful power and mysteries of Dafa. As a result, I let Dafa pass me by.
The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched its ferocious persecution against Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999. I was then in a mid-level leadership position and was assigned to persuade the large number of Falun Dafa practitioners in my work unit to give up their practice.
Finding No Fault with Falun Dafa
I reread Zhuan Falun, but with hopes of finding faults and loopholes so as to better persuade these people to discontinue their practice. The Dafa practitioners not only insisted on continuing to practice, but also told me how wonderful it was.
With so many close contacts with Dafa practitioners, I had ample opportunities to learn that these are really good people who maintain their equanimity while suffering tremendously unfair attacks and treatments.
I was invited to join in the exercises one day. I went along to show the practitioners I could do whatever they could, but when I did the fifth meditation exercise, I couldn’t sit with my legs crossed and felt extreme pain. It took me almost two years to eventually be able to sit in the full lotus position.
Because I continued to entertain a competitive mentality, I continued to miss the subtleties and greatness of Falun Dafa.
A friend of mine once bought a lot of books on Chinese traditional culture, including writings by Guan Zi, Han Fei Zi, Confucius, Lao Zi, Zhuang Zi and other ancient sages. I read these books carefully and began to appreciate the profundity of Chinese traditional culture, something I didn’t really know before, and something I had always criticized due to having been misled all these years by the CCP-instilled Party culture that taught the Chinese people those thoughts and ideas are all wrong.
I began to realize that Zhuan Falun is actually teaching me principles in greater depth than the writings of the sages. It was then that I was finally able to let go of my competitive mentality and I was gradually able to read Zhuan Falun with a calm heart and clear mind.
And the more I read, the happier I felt, and the more I understood, the healthier I become.
I had the opportunity to work in the West for a relatively long time in 2005. Through the New Tang Dynasty TV (NTDTV), I was able to learn about and understand the CCP’s history and origin by watching the series of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. I also read such writings as the "Disintegration of the Party Culture" and "Marx’s Road to Becoming a Demon."
Having a Rude Awakening
I had a rude awakening, and finally realized how long and how deeply I had been poisoned by the CCP’s brainwashing system of education. That was what had actually been preventing me from getting into Dafa practice.
Upon my return to China, I began to truly cultivate Falun Dafa. I also began to introduce Dafa to my colleagues and people whom I came into contact with. I would tell them that Falun Dafa is the great Buddha Fa, and explain to them why practitioners are so cruelly persecuted. I let them know the great benefits of practicing Dafa. I also showed them how to get rid of the restrictive Party culture and how to get on to independent thinking, because in so doing they will improve their ability to distinguish right from wrong.
I read articles from the Minghui website to keep informed about Master and Dafa, and to learn from other practitioners in order to identify my shortcomings and to constantly improve myself.
I now do the exercises and sit in double lotus for one and a half to two hours every morning. I then study two lectures from Zhuan Falun and read or recite Master’s poems and songs from the three volumes of Hong Yin. I live my days feeling very fulfilled and joyous.
When I think about the journey of my Falun Dafa cultivation practice, I know that each step of the way is under Master’s exquisite arrangement. I would like to express my heartfelt gratitude to Master for His compassionate mercy.