(Minghui.org) I was involved in a major car accident one night in September 2014 that left me unconscious. After I came to, I found myself partially paralyzed and suffering from extreme pain.
I knew this was the doing of the old forces and that Master Li (the founder of Falun Dafa) had saved me from the brink of death.
I thought: Deep within my heart, I promise to absolutely negate the old forces’ interference. Regardless of physical or financial hardship, I will only travel on the road arranged by Master and diligently cultivate.
As a result of the accident, my face became distorted to an unnatural triangular shape. I was unable to see anything and blood kept leaking from my nose.
In my heart, I continued to deny the old forces’ arrangements. On the third day, I managed to see a little light and I solemnly told my daughter: “I want to go home to practice the exercises and study the Fa. Do not listen to the doctor’s advice. Ever since I started learning Dafa, I have not consumed medication or received any injections. Dafa itself is extraordinary, and only Master and Dafa can truly help me.”
My daughter acquiesced to my wishes and told the doctor that I wanted to return home. The doctor replied: “What an unfilial daughter. Do you want your mother to die? Currently, her life is in constant danger. With her head, legs, arms, and ribs fractured, she will not be able to move.”
After my daughter’s repeated requests, the doctor finally replied, “She may return home if her family members are willing to sign the release forms. The family will take responsibility for her condition thereafter!” I was driven home on the fifth day in a special stretcher.
The next day, my son and daughters began discussing treatment options. My son said, “Mom, how about drug injections and taking bone repair medication?” I replied: “No! You all know that I am a Dafa practitioner and a cultivator. Master will take care of me, and I will not need any treatment to recover. You all need not to panic— I will recover soon.” My son was angry. “You refuse to accept injections or medication,” he said. “What if I arrange for an ambulance to take you to a private specialist hospital a few kilometers away? This hospital can treat broken bones, allowing your injuries to heal faster.”
He also placed the bone repair medication he had bought before me. “Mom,” he said, “which treatment would you prefer? Make your decision quickly! Did you know eight fractures were discovered within your body? And with your recovery, we will be able to return to work. I will come back in the afternoon to hear your decision.”
I silently promised Master I would remain at home. I recited Master’s Fa in my heart:
“I'm Li Hongzhi's disciple, I don't want other arrangements or acknowledge them"--then they won't dare to do that. So it can all be resolved. When you can really do that, not just saying it but putting it into action, Master will definitely stand up for you.”(“Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference”)
As a Dafa practitioner and cultivator, I refused to acknowledge the hospital’s diagnosis of eight bone fractures. I told my children my plans. “After the crash, I should have died,” I said. “But Master saved my life. If not, would I be here talking to you? I have cultivated for 18 years, and our family has experienced miracle after miracle. Aren’t you all beneficiaries of Dafa?”
My son then replied: “Mom, Dafa is good and we all know that. But you have been hurt so severely. If you refuse any medical treatment, there will be nothing for us to fall back on! At least also take up this second option.”
I immediately rejected his proposal.
By this point, my children were crying. I too started to cry. All I could say was that Master would help me heal soon.
Because I suffered from burning pain in my hips and lower back, I was forced to go to the bathroom in bed. My three children took care of my needs in rotations.
I silently recited the Fa and prayed for Master to help me endure well. Every morning and afternoon, fellow practitioners would visit to help me study the Fa.
My health gradually improved over the next 10 days, and I was able to stand with help from fellow practitioners. When seeing that I could stand, my family was delighted. They rejoiced: “Truly, mom has indeed recovered without taking injections or medicine!”
My son said, “Mom, you should continue to study the Fa and do the exercises! I am convinced Dafa is good and truly miraculous!”
Within half a month, I started practicing the exercises while lying in bed. My children and fellow practitioners also propped up my upper body, so that I could practice the meditation exercise. Under Master’s protection and with assistance from fellow practitioners, my condition improved daily and I continued to practice the exercises.”
I slowly managed to stand in the morning to practice the exercises. On the 27th day, a fellow practitioner came to visit me. I stood up for her to see. Before leaving, she said, “You should be able to walk again tomorrow.” I sensed that Master had borrowed this practitioner’s words to guide me.
On the morning of the 28th day, I slowly shifted to the side of my bed and stood up. On my first try, I was able to lift my right leg. Slowly, step by step, I walked a total of four steps before shouting, “Son, I can walk!” At this point, my son and granddaughter rushed to my side, shouting, “Dafa is good!”
My family and friends were thus able to witness the supernatural miracles of Dafa.
This painful lesson motivated me to search deeply inward. I dug deep withiin attempting to find my errors. Was it because I owed others from my previous life and had to repay the karma in this lifetime? Or, were there loopholes and problems in my xinxing? I was determined to expose, disintegrate, and exterminate this problem and negate all interference and persecution arranged by the old forces.
My husband passed away when I was only 31 years old. After his death, I took over his duties. Although I was still young and with 3 small children to provide for, it had already been ingrained within me to respect strict moral principles. With the exception of work, I did not visit my co-worker’s homes or mix and participate in gossip with others. I wore plain, dull clothes, and devoted myself to raising my 3 children to adulthood.
Because my husband was killed in the line of duty, my children would receive priority for job placement when they reached 18 years of age. I approached the head of my workplace regarding this issue, and after getting a better understanding of our situation, he approved my appeal for priority job placement. Within three years, my children made the smooth transition to suitable jobs. Our financial situation finally improved.
Around the time when we were moving to a new house, the workplace manager who had helped arrange jobs for my children suddenly visited me at home. Commenting that it had not been easy for me, he voluntarily offered to loan me 20 thousand yuan without interest.
I told him that was not acceptable. Actually, by that point, his underlying intentions of pursuing a relationship beyond that of ordinary colleagues was evident. However, being simple minded, I suspected nothing. As he continued insisting it was his responsibility to take care of us, I accepted his loan. After he told me to take the money as a gift, we started an intimate relationship.
In retrospect, I blamed myself for agreeing to such shameful acts. Full of remorse and guilt, I proposed to repay him and break off our relationship. Despite his disagreement, I repaid him 500 yuan and we broke up. Today, I expose this experience to negate the old forces’ test of lust, disintegrating their arrangement, and eradicating all obstacles in my cultivation path!
In terms of xinxing tests, I have not passed some of them well. I deeply regret each failure and have been very remorseful. As I have not adhered to Master’s teachings, I feel that I have let Master and Dafa down. Although it is now the Dharma-ending period, my xinxing is still poor, and I have yet to cultivate a compassionate heart. With determination I will make it.
Without compassion, I will not be able to pass my xinxing tests well. Having written to this point, I have sent strong righteous thoughts from the depth of my heart. I will completely disintegrate my lingering attachments and the evil factors behind them.
My attachments should have been cultivated away much earlier. I let the old forces take advantage of my loopholes, which resulted in damage to my health and financial difficulties.
Even though I have not walked my cultivation path steadily, the old forces are still not worthy of interfering with me. Master is looking after me. I have the Fa to correct my each and every thought, word, and action. I will walk the cultivation path arranged by Master!
With this car accident, I have caused Master to worry. I will now walk my path well, save sentient beings to fulfill my vow, and return home with Master. Thank you compassionate Master for saving me! Thank you fellow practitioners for your help and encouragement!