(Minghui.org) I was upset because I was not able to completely get rid of my mentality of fear and I knew it was interfering with my ability to talk to people about Falun Dafa and the persecution face-to-face. I searched inward to identify the source of my fear. How could I eliminate it from its root? Master said many times that whenever we have questions, we need to study the Fa more. I started to look for the answer in the Fa.

In transcribing Zhuan Falun, I enlightened from the word “selfish” that we descend in levels because of our attachment to protecting our self interests, or being selfish. Selfishness is the source of all our attachments.

The next day when I listened to the audio recording of Master's teaching, the sentence, “The mentality of fear is also a selfish attachment,” appeared in my mind.

I finally enlightened from this hint, “The reason we fear is because we don't want to lose what we have.” I was afraid of losing my personal property, having it damaged, or taken away.

I was afraid of filing a criminal complaint against Jiang Zemin, former head of the Chinese Communist Party, and afraid of talking to people in person because I was worried I'd lose my comfortable life. I didn't want my possessions taken away or my family members to be harmed or any of the other methods the Party uses to persecute practitioners.

The myriad of things in the human world were created by Dafa. Falun Dafa practitioners in the Fa-rectification period are entrusted with the sacred mission of assisting Master and saving sentient beings. The police cannot take away the things we use to save people unless our thoughts waver. But my mentality of fear prevented me from saving sentient beings because I was afraid of losing my material possessions and my comfortable life. I deeply regret hanging onto this mentality. When the truth is finally revealed, I don't want to eternally regret the countless lives that were not saved due to my incompetence.