(Minghui.org) While still in middle school in early 1999, I started to practice Falun Dafa. For the past 19 years, my life has been trouble-free, from successfully finishing school to getting a good job. I feel fortunate to be a practitioner.
By sharing my cultivation experience, I hope to discover my shortcomings, improve quickly, and assist Master in the Fa-rectification.
Experience Sharing Is Beneficial for Our Cultivation
For a long time, I could not get up in the morning to do the five exercises. Many young practitioners may have encountered this, but many elderly practitioners do not seem to have this problem. They rarely miss one day of morning exercises, while I could not hear the alarm sometimes or was sleepy and did not want to get up. I did the exercises in the evening instead, but it was not as good as doing them in the morning, because my legs really hurt after doing the sitting meditation for half an hour.
After I read several experience sharing articles by young practitioners, I started to look within and discovered that I did not cultivate diligently. I preferred to watch movies and cartoons, surfed the internet, and went out to dinner with friends. I was inspired to delete the movie streaming apps and games on my phone and stopped playing games on computers. After that, I could do the exercises in the morning.
I get a headache and want to sleep when I get home from work. As I write this, I realize that this is because I watch entertainment programs on the computer at work. When I am not diligent and start watching a TV series, I either get a call or a visit from the local police. Although I do not cooperate, these things should not happen.
Although I hesitated to write an experience sharing article, I realized that, when I want to benefit others, many bad substances can be eliminated. I also became aware of many notions and thoughts that did not align with the Fa. I now believe that writing an experience sharing is very beneficial for one's own improvement.
Eliminating Lust
I try to follow the standard of the Fa so that I do not give anyone a negative impression of Falun Dafa. I do not drink and am careful about how I behave with the opposite sex.
For a long time, however, I could not look into a man's eyes, because I was worried that I would give him the wrong impression. This fear worsened and it had to be resolved.
I remembered that ancient people always washed themselves before they worshiped gods or Buddha. So I washed myself and changed into clean clothes. Then, I went to Master's picture and said, “I really want to get rid of this attachment, but I don't know what caused it. Please enlighten me.”
That night I dreamed that I failed the test of lust with a movie star. I had dreamed of that movie star before. In my dreams, he was my boyfriend and was very, very nice to me. When I woke up in the morning, I realized that I had to eliminate the attachment to lust.
I sent righteous thoughts to cleanse my dimensions whenever I had time, from the most microscopic to the most macroscopic levels. I was finally able to overcome it.
Memorizing the Fa
I read articles on the Minghui website about memorizing the Fa and how it helped the person understand the deeper meanings of the Fa and also improved xinxing.
To improve in my cultivation meant that I had to study the Fa more diligently. I started to memorize the Fa, even though I am very slow at it. Although I like to get things done as quickly as possible and even ignore quality over speed, this is not acceptable when memorizing the Fa.
By consistently doing the exercises, memorizing the Fa, and sending forth righteous thoughts, my cultivation state returned to the time when I first started to practice Dafa. I am able to look within whenever I face a problem. I achieved this state by memorizing the Fa.
The Power of Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts
My husband is also a practitioner. He started practicing in 1998 and was taken to a forced labor camp. After he returned home, he did not like to study the Fa or send forth righteous thoughts. He drank and had turned into an everyday person. I was very worried, so I pushed him to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts, and I even looked down on him.
Then I read an article on the Minghui website about how a practitioner suffered mental disorders from being tortured in prison. When he returned home, his wife sent forth righteous thoughts for him and he eventually recovered. After reading it, I decided to send forth righteous thought for my husband to eliminate the old force's control over him.
After I sent forth righteous thoughts for a while, he suddenly had a thought: “Look within.” I knew he rarely looked inside when facing a problem, but he changed and looked within. This experience let me truly feel the power of righteous thoughts.
Many practitioners filed criminal complaints against Jiang Zemin, the former head of the communist regime. After I sent one to the Supreme People's Procuratorate, I got calls from the police to confirm that's what I had done. I used this opportunity to explain the facts about Falun Dafa to them. If they refused to listen, I let them know that they were breaking the law and quoted the legal language I found on Minghui.
Over a hundred local practitioners were harassed, and some were arrested last year, before the 19thPeople's Congress. We went to our local police department to send forth righteous thoughts, eliminating the evil factors in other dimensions. The situation improved.
Looking Within Unconditionally
Master said,
“Cultivation is about cultivating one's heart and cultivating oneself. When there are problems, conflicts, difficulties, and unfair treatment, one is still able to search oneself and look inside, and that's real cultivation, and only then will one be able to continuously improve, walk straight on the path of cultivation, and head toward Consummation!” (“A Congratulatory Message to the Taiwan Fa Conference”)
When I look inside for my shortcomings, I realize that I did not cultivate my speech well. I talk too much and sometimes talk about other people's shortcomings, bad-mouthing them behind their backs.
When I had pain in my shoulder or back, I assumed it was because I sat in front of the computer too long. It never occurred to me to look at the issue from a cultivator's perspective. When there is a conflict with everyday people, I get angry and forget that I am a cultivator.
Although I am very careful and diligent at work, I have not established a reputation as a good person like some other practitioners. Most of my colleagues are heavily influenced by the indoctrination of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), so it is difficult to talk to them about Falun Dafa. Even when I talk to my friends about Dafa, I am always worried that they will have a negative reaction. To overcome that notion, I need to improve in my cultivation.
