(Minghui.org) After having cultivated for over 20 years, I was still haunted by the issue of getting old and not enjoying life.

As someone over 70, the thought of being tired of living constantly popped into my mind. I did not have many good days before I started cultivating Dafa. I might not have wanted to live if I did not cultivate Dafa.

I knew such negative thoughts were not good. I tried to expel them, to little avail.

After Master's lecture at the 2019 New York Fa Conference was published, I was stunned by some of the principles Master taught us, which helped me to gain a deeper understanding of life.

Master said:

“Divine beings go through a cyclical process as well; it’s not that they never perish. But they know when they are to die, and know when they are to be born. It’s only that they will not bring with them their memories from before. The difference is mainly that their lives are of great length, and at some point they may even come to find life boring.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference”)

After studying the lecture for more than 60 times, I suddenly enlightened that the feeling of a boring life is the state of lives in the old cosmos. The old forces used it to persecute practitioners and made them lose confidence and righteous minds after really long periods of suffering so that they were tired of living and no longer wanted to live.

At that very moment of enlightenment, I felt that Master removed the dark, negative substance in my mind. I was filled with indescribable happiness!

But at the same time, I also felt ashamed that I did not do well as a disciple of the Fa-rectification period and that I was far from the Fa's standard.

Another sentence in this lecture truly cleared up my mind:

“You can achieve any spiritual heights if you have the guts!”

I dare not think about how high I can achieve in my cultivation, but I made up my mind to cultivate myself well and harmonize what Master wants.

I treasure the precious time and opportunities more after reading Master's words,

“I have to bear simply enormous pressure as well as the hardship of all sentient beings.”

I felt myself so tiny under Master's compassion and magnificence. I had no reason not to be diligent.

Cherishing Minghui

Master's lecture also made me appreciate the hard work of those practitioners who work on the Minghui website. I would like to express my gratitude to them: thank you for your hard work and dedication. The Minghui website is like a lighthouse guiding me along my cultivation. I felt so sad once when I had trouble reaching the website for two months.

Master said,

“When Dafa disciples are in the most difficult of circumstances and need to hear a [supportive] voice, Minghui.org is there for them. So think about how extraordinary your work is. You really should cherish it! However hard it may be to do, that is your majestic virtue.” (2018 Fa Teaching Given in Washington, D.C.)

When I had a hard time during my tribulation, Master gave me the Minghui website to help me find my way home.

When the day of the Fa rectifying the human world is here, practitioners in China will be able to freely access the Minghui website. That will be a day of celebration in both heaven and earth, a day that sentient beings await with sincerity and gratitude.

This is my limited understanding from Master's latest lecture. Please point out anything not in line with the Fa.