(Minghui.org) I was a senior in high school in 1999 when I read the book Zhuan Falun for the first time. It was exactly like Master said:
“The fact is, that was something hidden deep in your heart, like an electrical plug. The minute it’s connected, you get galvanized.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Canada”)
I immediately understood that Falun Dafa is the truth of the universe.
Master said:
“If something is yours, you will not lose it. If something is not yours, you will not have it even if you fight for it.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)
I was very narrow-minded and had a lot of attachments before I started practicing. I was quite emotional when things didn't go my way.
I gradually let go of my desires after I obtained Dafa at the age of 18. Instead, I focused more on what I was doing.
As a result, things often went exceptionally smoothly. For example, I highly valued my academic performance when I was in high school. I worried about it every day. However, the final exam results didn't reflect what I had learned, so my grades didn't allow me to go to the university I had dreamed of.
After I began cultivating diligently, I shifted my focus to doing the three things well. I looked within and improved my xinxing whenever I was in trouble.
Master always gave me the best, including attending the university and graduate school I had dreamed of. Later I passed the special national exam and obtained a stable job with a fairly good salary. Furthermore, I met my husband who is also a cultivator, and his parents love and support me more than my parents do.
I worked hard and treated people with sincerity. My colleagues and supervisors all treated me nicely. I told them the facts of Dafa and they accepted them happily.
However, the workplace social environment was very different from school. Life at school was relatively simple, while in the workplace I often saw all kinds of vying for power and profit. It was difficult to adhere to a simple, sincere, and direct manner when interacting with people.
One of my supervisors was suddenly not satisfied with me. He often blamed me for no reason. I was at a loss and felt aggrieved because I thought he was a good supervisor. I didn't know why he suddenly changed his attitude towards me.
Later, I observed from the perspective of a cultivator and found that he had formed many concepts from his life experience. He taught me various complex ideas and became angry when he found out that I did not follow his ideas.
Master said:
“But no matter how smart or cunning a person is, everything ends up the same in the end. Let's take the case of someone who is very dumb. You may find one person stupid and naïve, while another is very cunning. But no matter how you live your life, the outcome is the same. It definitely won't change any just because a person is cunning, nor will it change any because a person is naïve. All that being cunning can do is to turn you into a worse person, and while you create karma you will slide down. As your surroundings and you yourself become tense and strained, the minds of those around you will in turn grow even more complicated, and then their complicated thinking will in turn cause you to grow still worse.” (“Fa Teaching at the U.S. Capital” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. VIII)
Looking inside as a cultivator should, I found the problem was with me. I was holding ordinary people to the standard of a practitioner.
I felt miserable when my mind was filled with the shortcomings of others. I found it painful to go to work. I even thought of resigning and working only on Dafa projects, but I knew this would be an attempt to evade hardship.
I learned that I couldn’t escape difficulties in cultivation. This was a big test and I would improve greatly from passing the test. So I asked myself to look only at the strengths of others, ignore their weaknesses, and understand their different outlooks on life at different levels.
I also learned not to admire people who are able to handle things well in society, and that I must try to let go of my emotions in order to develop compassion.
After a while, the tension with my supervisor disappeared and my work environment returned to normal.
I enlightened that Master would use various ways to remove my attachments, improve my xinxing, and eliminate my karma, just like during the sitting meditation. The key is not to avoid the hardship even though we feel a lot of pain when karma accumulates in our legs. If the karma has not been eliminated this time, a new test may be added next time, making it more difficult to pass.
I have been validating the Fa by writing articles since the beginning of the Fa-rectification period. Readers have responded well to my articles.
Recently, I started film production as well. I have made films about the Hong Kong protests against totalitarianism. The CCP has produced a lot of fake news, slandering demonstrators as mobs that attack police. It did the same thing in persecuting Falun Dafa.
The CCP has been trying to instill hatred in people's hearts. The films I made were welcomed and liked by a large number of viewers, with tens of thousands of people watching them.
The process of making a film is also a process of cultivation. I’m quite an easy-going person with regards to most things because I don’t care too much about them. But I am a perfectionistic and controlling when it comes to something I really care about.
Telling the truth is something I truly care about, so the practitioners who worked with me suffered a lot. I was often angry with the finished film. I wondered why the pictures were like this and the subtitles like that. In the end, they had to change it to the effect I wanted.
I realized there was nothing wrong with making changes, because after all, I am the film producer and responsible for the film. But I shouldn't get angry and anxious.
Another project I have been doing for a long time is interviewing Shen Yun's audience members. I have been involved in interviews almost every year since the first year of Shen Yun's tour in Taiwan.
The pressure during interviews is huge as I’m required to interview mainstream audience members. My cultivation has to keep up, otherwise, the interview will be unsatisfactory.
When I completely put down the result-seeking mentality, the interviewees would seem to be arranged and came one after another.
In the interviews, I would keep clearing my mentality of pursuing a result and validating myself. The interview would become easier every time.
What impressed me most was when I dealt with sickness karma. The coordinator asked me to conduct interviews in Taipei and Keelung. I knew it was my mission, although I was hesitant.
There was a pedestrian bridge on the way to the venue. I felt tremendous pain when I stepped on that bridge. Each step was a great test for me and I could hardly walk. I thought to myself, “I am walking towards Master, towards Master.”
Step by step I reached my destination. Amazingly, I completely recovered as soon as I arrived at the theater. No one noticed anything different about me, and the interviews went well that day.
I’ve visited Hong Kong to support activities there many times. About 70 Taiwanese and Japanese practitioners were refused entry to Hong Kong to participate in anti-persecution activities at the end of April 2019, and they were repatriated. I was very angry after reading the news.
Dafa practitioners go to Hong Kong to save sentient beings. Controlled by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), the Hong Kong government has given up judicial independence and has been persecuting Dafa practitioners, and thus has interfered with the salvation of sentient beings.
I decided to eliminate the evil interference and save people in Hong Kong. I immediately signed up for the Dafa Day celebration in Hong Kong in May. However, I felt scared after I signed up. I tried hard to eliminate all kinds of negative notions for a week.
I was determined not to yield to the bad thoughts. It was all right to have some attachments but it would be terrible if I chose to avoid them instead of facing them and eliminating them.
When the attachments emerged, I would destroy them one after another, turning bad things into good things and turning interference into the process of accomplishing cultivation. I tried my best to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all kinds of bad thoughts.
I still felt scared when I arrived at the airport, but the magic thing was that when I arrived at customs, I felt strongly that Master was right beside me. My knowing side, with the divine body, was huge in another dimension and covered the entire customs immigration office.
At that very moment, the fear completely dissolved. I was very calm when my ID was checked, and I passed through customs without trouble.
The next day, I marched in the Dafa parade, and saw a lot of people organized by the CCP screaming and yelling. I sent forth righteous thoughts to make these people create less karma for themselves by letting them have sore throats and by stopping their horns from working. Some of their loudspeakers broke down. The sound the speakers made was intermittent, and it was hard to understand what they were saying.
Many people stood on both sides of the road watching our parade. I smiled at them, and tried to leave them with good thoughts.
I suggested our practitioners interact with the people watching the parade, and wave at them so they could see our kindness.
Sometimes, the wind suddenly became very strong, and the practitioners had a hard time holding the banners and moving forward.
Seeing this, I immediately communicated with the wind God and asked him to help. The wind weakened after every request. I thanked Master for granting me the supernatural power.
I started to feel exhausted as the parade neared its end. A bus drove by with an advertisement that caught my eye, “Support You! Transcend Beyond Yourself.” I immediately knew Master was encouraging me. I regained my strength and walked to the end of the parade.
Under Master's protection, I have gone through many trials and tests in twenty years of Fa-rectification cultivation. I have kept in mind the sacred mission of a Dafa practitioner: to save all beings.
Sometimes I ask myself, “Would you feel regretful if the Fa came right now to rectify the human world?” The answer is no. I made my best efforts at each Fa-rectification stage, although I did not do well enough.
I hope under Master’s guidance, I can walk the rest of my cultivation path better and assist Master to save more people.