(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa in May 1998. Prior to that, I had always been searching for true gods and Daos through all kinds of religions. However, none of them seemed right, and I became worried. One night, I knelt down and looked up at the sky. With tears in my eyes, I said, “How come it’s so hard to find a righteous cultivation path?”
That night, I had a dream: Many Buddhas came to my home and left after they had finished their meals. One Buddha turned into what Master’s portrait looks like in Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa. I then woke up.
When I opened my eyes, I saw Master appear three times in front of me, giving off white light. I had no idea what this meant.
Someone gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun a few years later and introduced Falun Dafa to me. I wasn’t interested but wanted to see what Dafa's teacher looked like. I opened up the book and saw Master’s picture. I wondered how this person looked so familiar. It was as if I had met him before. While I was racking my brains trying to remember where I had seen this person before, Master gave off white light all over his body. The light gradually changed into the image of the picture in the book and then returned to the book.
This truly shocked me. That day, I read Zhuan Falun, and I knew that this was what I had been looking for. I learned the five sets of exercises.
Through studying the Dafa teachings and doing the exercises, within only a few days, my rheumatism, itchy skin, and incurable diseases all disappeared. I no longer needed medications after that. It’s truly wonderful being illness-free.
More than 20 years have since passed. Master has compassionately watched over me, and Dafa has helped me overcome one trial after another.
Taking On New Responsibilities
I went to Beijing three times to appeal for Falun Dafa after the persecution began on July 20, 1999. I was arrested at home twice and illegally sentenced to prison. I have experienced a great deal and learned some valuable lessons.
At the beginning of the persecution, I only took the initiative to pass on Master’s new lectures and truth-clarification materials to fellow practitioners. With the change in my cultivation environment, I began to set up my own materials production site and have run it ever since. I then took on the role of coordinating the distribution of materials in our area.
At the beginning, people were deceived by the lies and propaganda put out by state-run media defaming Falun Dafa and Master. However, there were no materials available to expose the evilness of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), and we were very worried.
Practitioners in the city got in touch with me and asked if I could take on the task of collecting printed copies of Master’s new lectures and informational materials downloaded from the Minghui website from the city, take them back to our area, and then distribute them among our local practitioners.
I was pregnant at the time and traveling around was no easy task, so my husband helped me deliver the materials to local practitioners. He did that a few times but became scared when officials in charge of the village assigned people to monitor practitioners. Whatever we did would be under their surveillance.
My husband wouldn't allow me to deliver materials or have other practitioners come to our home to collect them. How could that happen? I said to him, “After we practitioners began cultivating in Dafa, every one of us has benefited. Now Dafa is being persecuted. If we practitioners don’t do anything about it, who would do it for us? If you really want to stop me from doing this, then I’ll have to go to Tiananmen Square and shout, ‘Falun Dafa is good!’ to let people know the truth.”
Seeing that I was determined, my husband stopped trying to interfere, and I began to collect and deliver materials again.
Surviving Hardship While Master Watches Over Me
As the persecution became more severe, our environment got more tense. Some practitioners weren't able to rectify their home environment, so their family members didn’t allow them to get in touch with other practitioners.
Sometimes I had to exhaust all means to have Master’s new articles delivered to them, as I knew the desire for practitioners to have access to them, especially amid the persecution.
One practitioner's family members were very rude when we tried to deliver materials to them. I thought the practitioner shouldn’t lose the chance to read Master's new lectures because of this.
His mom began to swear at me when I arrived at the door. I spent a long time clarifying the facts to her, and in the end, she said, “I know you are all good people. I was afraid that you’d be persecuted, that’s why I didn’t want you to come here.”
It was dark by the time I left their home. With no street lights, I had to walk between tall fields of corn on either side of the road. I couldn’t see anything around me and was petrified. Suddenly I saw light approaching from behind. I thought it was a car, and I was dazzled by the light when I turned around and moved to one side to let it by.
There was no car. I realized that it was Master watching over me, and I calmed down. After that, I began to recite:
“Make the wish to save all beings,Assist Master with the journey in the world;Aid me in turning Falun,Fa forms, heaven and earth move.”(“Assisting Fa,” Hong Yin, Translation Version B)
Every time new articles came out, I rode my bicycle with a cart in the back to transport them to my home. Then I delivered them to one village after another. It was rather difficult, but as Master said,
“No matter what you do, you aren’t thinking that you’re doing something for Dafa, about how you should do things for Dafa, or “how can I do things well for this Fa.” Instead, you are placing yourselves in Dafa. Like a particle of Dafa, [you feel that] no matter what it is, you should just do it.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Great Lakes Fa Conference in North America,” Guiding the Voyage)
I was also a particle of Dafa. No matter what I did, as long as it’s something required by Dafa, I should do it and do it well. Whenever other practitioners came to look for me and whatever they asked me to do, I would take it on. So over time, I naturally became a coordinator.
I gave birth to another boy in 2001. Time went by so fast. I had to go to the city to pick up the materials and then distribute them, print four editions of Minghui Weekly every month, study the Fa, and send forth righteous thoughts. I also led other practitioners to hand out materials and clarify the facts to people. At home, I had to look after my children and do the household chores. I felt a lot of pressure.
Initially, I wanted to take a break and transfer some of my work to another practitioner. But I then thought: Master asked us to be considerate of others in everything. If I offload my work to someone else, wouldn’t it just transfer the stress to the other practitioner? When I ran into difficulties, if I chose to back down, how could I still behave like a practitioner? But on the other hand, I was also afraid that I couldn’t do well.
During Fa-study, Master hinted at me that when I put my heart into doing things, I could do them well. Dafa strengthened me and made me determined to carry on with what I should do.
Collecting Materials Safely
When the large materials production site in the city was destroyed and several practitioners were arrested, one city practitioner came to look for me, saying that he ran out of room to store materials and asked me to find a car to take them to our place.
I talked with Mr. He, who borrowed a car from a non-practitioner. Mr. He made it clear to the man how we were going to use the car, and if we were to get into trouble, we’d take full responsibility for any consequences.
Mr He thought that if something bad happened and this person didn't know why we needed his car, then he would probably have felt that we cheated him, which would have created a negative effect on Dafa. This person was still willing to lend us his car.
The city was over 20 miles away, and there were police cars everywhere. We arrived at the practitioner’s home just after a stream of police cars and riot police passed. The practitioner’s family member suggested that we should not leave for home straight away and should go early in the morning and blend in with traffic going to the market.
We went to bed right after sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight. When I got up early the next morning, we drove the car to where the materials were stored and loaded the car full. We drove past the police and left the city safe and sound. Only then could we take a deep breath and relax.
Establishing Material Production Sites
When the city's large material production site was destroyed, we began to make our own materials with the assistance of the city practitioners. We used silk screen printing. It was fairly easy to handle the first side, but not so much the other side. Still, we produced 1,000 copies overnight. We had to work tirelessly to the point where we had sore backs and waists.
We carried out this work at five different locations. Besides making materials, we also learned how to make banners and sticky notes. The demand to cover a few townships and villages far exceeded our capacity, so we decided to buy a printing machine to make the materials.
I was so busy every day. I needed to take care of procurement, making materials and coordinating the distribution. Besides that, there was also the family to look after. I also had to help practitioners when they came to me for something. Every morning I wrote down the things that I needed to do that day. When it came to the end of the day, I was totally exhausted.
While in bed, I still thought about what needed to be done the next day. I was left with very limited time for Fa-study.
Copying and Reciting the Fa
I couldn’t find the time to study the Fa during the day, so after sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight I began to study the Fa until 3 a.m. before going to bed, but I found it hard to calm my mind to study. So I decided to hand-copy Zhuan Falun. I came to this passage:
“We will straighten out all these matters and, by preserving the good parts and removing the bad parts, ensure that you are able to cultivate later. However, you must be here to genuinely study this Dafa.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
My thoughts that were going all over the place suddenly stopped, and I could calm down. My body also felt light. I knew that Master was helping me. I knew that if I wanted to walk my cultivation path well, the only way was to study the Fa well.
Master said,
“The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive Out Interference,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Thus, I recited the Fa while copying the Fa.
Reciting the Fa has made me enlighten to many Fa principles. Many questions that came up during Fa-study were resolved by reciting the Fa. It has made me truly able to “understand the Fa from within the Fa...” (Teachings at the Conference in Australia).
Reciting the Fa has helped me maintain an optimal cultivation state. With that, it has helped me do better the three things that practitioners are supposed to do.
Master has saved us from going down to hell. He has held our hands and helped us walk toward maturity after having stumbled time after time on our cultivation paths. Master painstakingly helps us with immense compassion. My gratitude toward Master is beyond words.
