(Minghui.org) I don’t own or use a mobile phone. My husband, who is also a practitioner, has one, and we mainly use it to call our children.
Because of the pandemic, we are required to scan the QR code everywhere we go. Therefore, my son bought me a mobile phone. Since our neighborhood was under lockdown, and I couldn’t go out, I thought it was a good time to learn to use the phone.
As soon I saw an interesting video, I got hooked on it, which went on for days. A few days ago I saw a video about a Chinese Communist Party (CCP) leader and a young woman during wartime. They lived together for one month. I got curious and wasted 20 minutes on the phone.
My husband and I have not been intimate for two years. Although I have no desire, once in a while the demon of lust would show up in my dreams, and I can usually pass the test. But, because I watched videos with erotic content, the demon of lust came into my dream three nights in a row.
So I returned the phone to my son, and said, “Thanks for the phone, but I don’t know how to use it, and I don’t want to learn. I’ll just use your dad’s phone when I go out.”
The interference stopped, and I haven’t dreamed of the demon of lust since then.
Authorities Harassed Us Because We Still Had Attachments
I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1997, and my husband in 2003. He got rid of many bad habits since then, but continued spending time on the mobile phone every day, and sometimes for a long time.
He was also attached to lust, even after I repeatedly persuaded him to get rid of it. I avoided being intimate with him for a period of time, and he felt so miserable that he couldn’t sleep. He was agitated, experienced chest pain, and wanted to go outside to get fresh air in the middle of the night. I was afraid that he would get into trouble or have an affair, so I gave in to his desire. I continued to talk to him and hoped that he would improve his understandings and eliminate the attachment to lust.
Experiencing Persecution
A group of four officials came from the city where I registered my permanent residency in October 2020. They traveled a long distance and went through a lot of trouble to find my current home.
I welcomed them, and offered them tea and fruit. They asked me to sign a document to renounce my faith under the “Zero-out campaign” [a concerted effort to force every single practitioner on the government’s blacklists to renounce Falun Dafa].
I didn’t sign the document, and explained, “Falun Dafa, and what practitioners do, are legal in China. It is practiced around the world and has benefited millions, including my family. Practitioners follow traditional values and believe in karmic retribution.” I gave them names of people they knew who received karmic retribution for persecuting practitioners.
Although they understood what I said, they still tried to convince me to sign. I refuted every reason they gave me. They said they didn’t want to come, but had to obey orders from above.
I said, “Master, the founder of Falun Dafa, had asked practitioners to awaken people. I would be hurting you if I signed the document, and I only wish you well. You are young and have families, and you should be responsible to them and not commit bad deeds. Don’t let your names show up on the perpetrator list. Actually, you should submit your names to the ‘Quit CCP’ website. You’ll be blessed for knowing that Falun Dafa is good and for protecting practitioners.” They left empty handed.
My husband and I stayed at a relative’s place for a week to avoid local domestic security officers who might come to our house.
I told my husband, “You were afraid when they showed up at our house. Think about it, there are no coincidences in cultivation. Troubles knocked on our door because we haven’t eliminated our attachments. You still have a lustful heart, and I have too much affection for you and don’t want you to suffer. I’m worried that you can’t restrain yourself, and do things against Dafa and destroy yourself. I’m afraid to lose you. The bad elements are watching us, waiting to attack us. They will make their move if we don’t get rid of our attachments. Isn’t it dangerous?!”
Master said, “One only needs to worry about putting in the effort of practice, and the rest is in the hands of one’s teacher.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I let go of the human affection toward my husband, Master took away his lustful desire, and we stopped being intimate. He didn’t suffer as much as before, and finally passed the test of lust.
He used to spend a lot of time on his mobile phone. But surprisingly, he stopped doing it without me telling him.
Browsing the Web
I usually refrain from browsing the web, because I noticed it was difficult and sometimes impossible to go online after browsing it. Perhaps Master was reminding me to avoid ordinary websites.
I’ve only attended elementary school, and I didn’t learn to use the computer until 2015. A practitioner helped me purchase a second-hand computer for 600 yuan, and I’m still using it now. Some said my computer is old and slow, but I haven’t had many problems, and can surf the Internet.
Although I couldn’t go online a couple times during the 20th National Congress, I was able to use UltraReach to log on and download information.
My husband doesn’t know how to use the computer, but he used to check the news as soon as I turned on the computer, and I tried to discourage him. During the 20th National Congress, he would sit next to me after I went online. But as soon as he sat down, the computer screen turned black. I said to him, “Do you think Master is giving us a hint so that we’re not attached to the news?” He seemed to understand.
I’m sharing my experiences with practitioners so that we can remove the attachment to browsing the Internet. Master has extended the time for us at a high cost, and we should use it to cultivate, and go home with Master.
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