(Minghui.org) After I was arrested in 2017, I had trouble focusing. My thoughts were negative and I felt I was being interfered with when I studied the Fa and practiced the exercises. I avoided interacting with other practitioners. During the pandemic, I distributed truth-clarification materials a few times, but I was afraid. I wanted to overcome my fear, but I just could not leave my home.
When I was studying the Fa I read,
“This student slowly got up from the ground and said, “There’s nothing wrong. You can leave.” She brushed the dirt off her clothes and left with her husband.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun).
I felt Master’s vast compassion. Master was waiting for me to pick myself up, and I was moved to tears.
I met a veteran practitioner I hadn’t seen in years. He gave me a memory card that had a Minghui cultivation sharing article about overcoming human attachments and the importance of sending righteous thoughts. Listening to it helped change my notions.
Memorizing the Fa
Master has repeatedly reminded us to study the Fa. I know that I wasted a lot of time. If I want to catch up with the progress of Fa rectification, I need to study the Fa more. I decided to memorize Zhuan Falun. I memorized the Fa after I finished sending righteous thoughts at 6 a.m. every day, for about an hour.
I’ve now reached Lecture Nine, and I’m able to remember the first eight lectures. I think this is miraculous. Master said,
“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
We just need to have a wish, and Master will open up our wisdom. Every time I memorize the Fa, I heshi (put my palms together) and thank Master!
I’ve benefited so much from memorizing the Fa, and I’d like to tell you about my experiences.
Learning to Look Within Unconditionally
I memorized this sentence in Lecture Five,
“Everything that happens to everyday people is caused by them, themselves.” (Lecture Five, Zhuan Falun)
I understood the Fa principle that Master wants us to look within unconditionally. My family, relatives, friends, colleagues, and everyone that I meet have a connection with me—we all knew each other in past lifetimes. Of course, there are both positive and negative affinities. Their behavior towards me helps point out my attachments. I need to look within and eliminate them.
When I encountered unreasonable people, I thought, “Why is he like that?!” I now understand that they are acting as a mirror for me to examine myself.
Although I’ve practiced for more than 10 years, I feel like I've just started.
Overcoming Fear
I hid in the house instead of going out because I was controlled by selfishness and fear. I knew that I must cultivate and that I had a mission to save sentient beings. When I understood this, I recalled Master said,
“One must truly temper and improve oneself through actual practice.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
If I just stayed at home, how could I get rid of my fear? Practitioners also mentioned in their sharing articles that fear is an element that controls people. How can I be controlled by fear?!
After my righteous thoughts emerged, a practitioner came and said she could give me truth clarification materials. I knew that this was Master’s arrangement. I initially could only distribute 20 copies a week. As I memorized the Fa, my righteous thoughts became stronger and stronger. I can now distribute more than 100 copies a week.
Every time I go out I quietly say, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” As I enter each street I think, “Master is asking me to come and save all of you.”
My fear gradually disappeared during the process of distributing materials.
Cultivation Is Serious
One day, I memorized,
“As an everyday person, whatever should happen to him will occur. He might have other illnesses or encounter other troubles. Is it reasonable to blame qigong practice for everything?” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun).
Master mentioned “everyday person” many times in Zhuan Falun. I always thought he was talking about people who were not cultivating. This time, I understood that this was actually referring to me when I don’t think about problems based on the Fa or when I don’t abide by the Fa in my behavior. I finally understood why we must catch hold of our every thought and notion and cultivate ourselves.
Cultivation is very serious! When we experience problems or illness karma, our attachments are exposed. We should always remind ourselves that we are cultivators.
In the past, when I was studying the Fa, I never felt this part referred to me. Now, when I memorize the Fa, I understand that Master’s every sentence and word is teaching me how to cultivate. Thank you, Master, for your benevolent salvation!
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